My last baby...

We are having a baby!!!
Due February 17th 2012. I am 15 weeks today. I found out in June 8th and for the third time in my life I dropped to my knees the moment the little line showed on the test. Happy, nervous, excited, scared, I can remember just repeating in my head 'praise, praise, praise, praise'. I have never taken a test with Pete there so there has always been a bit of time when just God and I know and there is something so special about that.

We kept it a secret from EVERYONE because it was a weekend filled with graduation celebrations for so many of our friends and Phil and Jenna's going away party so we wanted to keep the focus on them, not us. The day after we told Phil and Jenna they found out they were having a baby! It was a perfect crazy emotional time I will never forget. These cousins are due 5 days apart in the middle of February.

It was also the week Phil and Jenna moved to Hawaii (things actually couldn't change any more for them that month) and I went with them to house hunt and help get settled. And just vacation. :)

The day I left Hawaii was the day 'the sickness' settled in. And then I'm just blacking out the following 2 months. Not even joking. I. Felt. Terrible. It was nothing like my first two pregnancies. I was nauseous, exhausted, miserable. I even made a Dr. appointment for the sole fact I needed an ultrasound because I was convinced I had at least 4 babies in there. Thankfully found I there is just the one. :)

I wasn't going to go to the Dr. because I decided to have this baby at home! I'll post about home birth later but I am very excited and I LOVE my midwife.

I feel good now, still a little worn down but I remember feeling this way with Mo too. This pregnancy is going by fast! We also decided to find out wether this one is a boy or girl at 20 weeks which we hadn't done before so that will be the end of September. Can't WAIT to find out.

Another thing is that we know for sure this will be our last baby. Pete and I both feel like our family will be complete. So it's actually pretty interesting going through a pregnancy knowing that it will be your last time. I'll never find out I'm pregnant again, never go through a first trimester, never get to tell friends I'm pregnant again. So it just makes me stop and cherish each thing a little bit more.

As for telling Emma she said, 'I don't want another baby, Mo is enough." :) She's getting used to the idea though. Likes to make plans about where the baby is going to sit at the table and in the car (ug, we have to see if we can cram 3 carseats across our car!) She is also excited to share a room with Moses, she is incredibly good with him, it breaks my heart in the good way to hear them talk and play, it's so sweet. He mostly just answers "dah" or "no" and she asks him good yes/no questions. :)

This is me 8 days before I had sweet MoMo,